"We’re always thinking that someday we’ll be happy; we’ll get that car or that job or that person in our lives that’ll fix everything. But happiness is a mood, and it’s a condition, not a destination. It’s like being tired or hungry, it’s not permanent. It comes and goes, and that’s okay."

Monday, November 19, 2012

Eighth Week of Nursing School


November 12th, 2012
Dear New Clinical Site,

            Today I had to wake up early to make the trek to uptown New York for my new clinical placement since the hospital I was previously assigned to was evacuated during Hurricane Sandy. I didn’t think getting there was going to be a problem, but I ended up getting lost along the way and was bit late even though I left my place 1.5 hours before I was supposed to be there. This made me worried for what might happen if I am placed out of Manhattan in the upcoming semesters. I heard from other students that the new location was a nursing home facility. Since I had previously worked as a nurse aide in California, I was kind of disappointed that our new clinical location was not a hospital because I wanted more exposure to the hospital setting. Once I arrived I found the facility was a lot nicer than other nursing homes I had worked at. Unfortunately, my opinions changed as the day progressed and I will explain in a little bit.
            My clinical group ended up being placed on a floor where the majority of the residents could perform their activities of daily living and required little help from us. I was glad that we were not assigned specific residents to attend to because this gave me a chance to get to know a variety of personalities. Just like my previous nursing home experiences, I knew I could become to some of the residents I talked to. This makes me wonder if I want to work in geriatrics because I don’t know if I could handle if one of the residents I become attached to passes away.
            Now to talk about why my opinion changed on the nursing home. Although the facility was nicer, more spacious, and clean, the employees were definitely lacking in quantity and quality. Our clinical instructor ended up reporting an employee for taunting one of the residents. What had happened was that after lunch time ended and the cafeteria was being cleaned up, a resident became very upset with the nutritional employee because the nutritional employee was not professional at all. The nutritional employee continued to taunt and joke around with the aggravated resident, and the resident became more and more agitated. Another reason I became distraught was that when a continent resident needed to go to the restroom, there were no PCTs on the floor and when they were summoned over the intercom they just took their sweet time and didn't end up helping the resident until a good 10 minutes. The lack of professionalism shown by the staff is not acceptable.
            On a more positive note, I did meet nice residents and each had her own special personality. One resident with dementia was truly a very nice lady but was also very defensive due to cultural differences. I realized that this particular resident was very focused on racial discrimination because she had mentioned several times about how "Blacks" were overrun by the "Whites" and also that I had "oriental eyes" and if I had lived in the south back in her day I would be overrun as well. Although I felt awkward about responding to her racial defensiveness, I felt like it was an essential lesson learned on how to deal with cultural competency situations. In addition to the conversations I had with the residents, I enjoyed the time our clinical group spent covering current events and holding an exercise circle. The happy expressions on the residents' faces is evidence that socialization events are essential to create a tight knit community, encourage social interaction, and create a comfortable environment for the residents to live in.

Until Next Time,
Clos3tGirlyGirl

Seventh Week of Nursing School

 November 8th, 2012

Dear Horribly Stressful Nursing Catch-Up Week,

            After Hurricane Sandy hit last week, most of my exams, evaluations, and assignments were pushed back a week. Unfortunately, for some reason my Adult and Elder on campus Simulation evaluation was not pushed back. This completely threw me off track studying-wise and emotionally. To be honest, it's a bit embarrassing but I broke down after reading the professor’s email. I didn't expect to still have the simulation evaluation because open simulation was cancelled for the week leaving me no chance to practice the scenarios. The only time I had to practice the scenarios was two hours before my scheduled testing time. I had not attended any of the previous open simulation slots because I was expecting to practice the Wednesday and Friday of the week of Hurricane Sandy. After getting a pep talk from my fellow nursing students and a few hours later, I managed to regain composure and convince myself that everything was going to turn out fine in the end. Going into the evaluation, I was pretty certain I was going to have to remediate. With my luck, I ended up with the Anthony Cunningham case and did not pass because I exceeded the time limit. The scenario called for a dressing change and medication administration. Sounds easy enough, but it was difficult to accomplish the nursing orders within 15 minutes when I was a bundle of nerves, paying close attention to make sure I didn't miss any steps or break the sterile field, and never acted the scenario out fully by myself. I also feel that the grading was very subjective depending on which clinical instructor was overseeing the evaluation because each clinical instructor taught the skills differently, had different expectations, and focused on different aspects of the skills. All in all, what I learned from this experience is to prepare for the worst and to not wait until the last minute to go to open simulation.
            Sadly, failing the A&E simulation evaluation sent me on a downward spiral. The past weekend I found it extremely difficult to concentrate fully on studying for my Health Assessment and Promotion midterm which was the day after. Not only could I not concentrate, but I could not sleep because I was so anxious. I came out of my HAP midterm feeling not very good about it. I'm pretty sure I missed at least 7 problems and I hope I got at least a B-. I feel like I studied for this test wrong because it was the first time I decided to focus my attention on the reading. If I had just stuck to my usual study habits of focusing on the slides, I know I could have performed much better. Again, lesson learned. Don't change your study habits when your study habits aren't broke.

Until Next Week,
Clos3tGirlyGirl

Sixth Week of Nursing School

October 29th, 2012
Dear Hurricane Sandy,
My sixth week of nursing school is nonexistent. This is the week of Hurricane Sandy. School has been cancelled Monday, Tuesday, and the school hasn't decided whether or not classes will be cancelled as well. Is this a blessing in disguise, is the world giving me time to catch my breath? Or is this a horrible nightmare? The "perfect storm" has made me miss my off campus Adult and Elderly midterm evaluation and my Health Assessment and Promotion midterm exam as well. If there aren't classes Wednesday, I will be missing my HAP Simulation evaluation too. From the looks of it, all exams will be pushed back to next week and then I will be in deep, deep trouble. Next week, I was supposed to have my A&E on campus evaluation and second Pathophysiology exam. The combination of this and next week's exams is going to be killer. I may be relaxed right now, but I am trembling at the thought of what is to come next week.
            Currently, I am sitting in the 12th floor hall way because the power went out about 45 minutes ago. The resident assistants told us that the generator is probably only going to last us another 45 minutes. Internet access was disconnected soon after the power outage and my phone only has service at random places on the floor. Since there isn't much nursing for me to talk about this week, I guess I'll talk about something that happened that extremely bothered me. About ten minutes after the power outage and right after the resident assistants warned us about how the generator will last, a group of students decided it would be a good idea to take the elevator down to the third floor for finger sandwiches and scones. I could not for the life of me wrap my mind around how young and stupid these kids were. Besides the fact that we should be conserving energy, the power outage means that these kids could have been stuck in the elevator. I'm only a few years older those kids, and I am greatly disturbed over how immature they are.

Goodbye Hurricane Sandy,

Clos3tGirlyGirl

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Oh Hurricane Sandy...

10/28/12 6:38 PM Windy Weather & Dark Grey Clouds


As a Cali girl, I have never experienced a hurricane before and just don't know what to expect. School has shut down for Monday October 29th, 2012, the subway is to be shut down, and although some parts of NYC are being asked to evacuate, the dorms are not. I'm not sure if the news and government are just trying to overly freak people out just to force us to prepare for the storm. I've come across a wide array of people this past weekend, all who have different opinions about the upcoming "perfect storm." Most of the people I've talked to aren't very worried about the storm and even laugh that I'm prepping for the storm. I almost feel like I'm on the higher end of the spectrum of freaking out. I've got some supplies... my flashlight, batteries, water, and food...anything else I need? I even pre-downloaded material for me to study for my exam on Tuesday in case the power goes out. Even though the people I've talked to aren't freaking out, I've noticed that as I was gathering my supplies that the grocery markets are filled with people and the lines are incredibly long. I'm used to earthquakes, but not hurricanes...any advice is appreciated!

10/29/2012 11:17 AM Episodes of Wind & Sprinkling Here n There



So I've been keeping up with the weather updates through the Weather Channel's live feed on YouTube. Apparently Hurricane Sandy is strengthening and approaching faster than expected. I'm definitely staying in today. No stopping by Bath & Body Works for their 2/$20 sale for me. There's so much I have to do before the storm gets here! I still have to shower in case the water is compromised, prepare coffee to store in my thermos, complete my online assignment before 6:00 PM in case the internet goes out....haha I know first world problems. From what I can tell, the only thing that has really changed since last night is that the wind has strengthened when it does hit. At times, I can see the small plotted tree on the roof of the building across the street swaying viciously. When I look down at the street, I can see that cars are still driving on the road but there are very little people walking about.

10/29/2012 1:17 PM Raining Harder

Just got notice that school is cancelled for tomorrow (10/30/2012) as well! News says Hurricane Sandy is going to hit around 5:00 PM EDT with 90 mph winds. O.O Oh my...

I started following a bunch of people on Twitter to keep myself updated: 

@weatherchannel

@MikeBloomberg

@twc_hurricane (Hurricane Central)


10/29/2012 4:00 PM Much, Much Windier

There's no point in me posting a picture because outside it looks the same as it was 3 hours ago. The thing is...it's definitely windier! I can see the trees flailing and debris flying about horizontally. Of course the wind comes in episodes. I'm glad that my dorm building walls are muffling the sounds of the wind or else I'd probably be freaking out more. A notice was just sent to us to prepare for a possible power outage and to prepare a "go-bag" in case we need to move buildings. Woohoo for being a worry wart cause my bag is already packed. If I can get the chance, I'll try shooting a video clip with my phone, but of course I'm not guaranteeing the quality.

10/29/2012 6:41 PM Scary Wind and Sirens Sounding

I hear the wind outside and its kind of scaring me. It sounds like debris and/or objects is hitting the outside of my dorm building. I hear sirens from far away and passing by every 5-10 minutes. I'm wondering what is going outside out there. They say the worst of the storm is going to be 6:00 PM to 10:00 PM. I've set up shop on the other side of my dorm room, just in case my window does for some reason gets knocked out. I doubt if my window did break, that my effort would help. I've got my stuff together in case I for some reason need to move locations. I'm starting to wonder if I should move into the hallway where there aren't any windows. Uhh...as I type this update it sounds like a tree was just uprooted outside...I guess the plus side is that I still have power and internet access.

10/29/2012 7:04 PM I Don't Give A F***


Ok seriously hearing the wind outside, I just kept imagining my window shattering and glass piercing my face. I moved my computer and "go-bag" to the dorm halls and I'm just going to camp here until the worst of the storm is over. I don't care if I look a little crazy!

10/31/2012 05:12 PM Wow...A Lot Has Changed


The power went out at my dorm around 9:00 PM on Monday. Luckily, my dorm has a generator so our hallways stayed lit, a couple outlets scattered throughout the building worked, and I was able to access water. We didn't have warm water to take a shower with until this morning, so yesterday I took a cold shower because I just felt gross from sitting around all day. Everyone clusters around the one outlet that works on our floor to charge their phones/laptops, and go down to the lower levels for internet access. I've heard a lot happened when Sandy came and I'm not sure if what I've heard are rumors. Apparently a crane dangled from atop a skyscraper, a transformer blew up at Con Edison and most of lower Manhattan has no power, ground zero turned into a waterfall, hospital generators failed so patients had to be evacuated, and the subways are out of commission until who knows when.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

NOTD: Butter London Disco Biscuit


Nail Color: Butter London Disco Biscuit (3 Coats)

Third Time's a Charm...B&BW Haul



I had to stop by Bath & Body works again. It was my third visit to a B&BW within 10 days. I've seriously have a candle addiction! I just couldn't help myself because I found out that a few of the fall scents were 50% off! Since I've been burning through one of three of my 4 oz. Cinnamon Sugared Donut candles, I wanted to stock up on the delicious scent. Unfortunately, I didn't have any applicable deals/coupons so I spent more than I would have liked. I also picked up a couple 1.3 oz candles with the 2 for $5 deal. I've started burning a few of the minis and I'm sad to say I'm starting to think that the mini candles are a waste of money. Scent is weak and throw is non-existent, I just might have to return a few. I will have more in-depth reviews with pictures up soon!

Bath & Body Works Haul Breakdown 
14.5 oz. Cinnamon Sugared Donut
14.5 oz. Cinnamon Sugared Donut
1.3 oz. Spiced Apple Toddy (Possible return because it smells entirely too similar to Leaves.)
1.3 oz. Cranberry Pear Bellini
1.3 oz. French Baguette (Will return, horrible excuse for a candle.)
1.3 oz. Pumpkin Cupcake 
Total (Before Tax) = $30.50 USD

P.S. If anyone has an idea how I can get my hands on test scents please fill me in! I would greatly appreciate it! =) Thank you in advance!

Mimi Cat Photo Bomb II